depressed ...
{sigh} i'm depressed because another birthday is approaching and my life is not were i wanted it to be. i thought i would be married and have at least 3 kids and be a great wife (to a dh) and a "donna reed" mom to my (darling) kids. lol. my g/f and my own mom tell me that it's not too late but the older i get the more i think it's just a lofty dream. i don't want to dream anymore and i want to make it a reality... however, i think i'm getting desperate listening to that clock tick louder and louder. arrgh! since when did waiting for mr right become wrong, or more importantly, take so long? although it's more acceptable in our society to get married and have children later in life it doesn't reassure me that it will happen. =P
the other day my sister marla said she planted a prayer "seed" for me so that i will find a husband soon. i told her to use fertilizer. ;)