scared & damaged

... or dark and twisty? that's how people describe meridith grey on the tv show, "grey's anatomy". she's my LEAST favorite character on the show but the most like me. isn't that sick? that the ONE person i don't like on the show is the one that reminds me of myself ... like in some way that i don't like myself? it's funny (not really) how grey's semi-b/f said to her, "you think you don't deserve to be happy, but you do." these are the exact words that my ex-b/f said to me.

do i have a point to this story? not really. i was thinking that it's so not fair that she has 2 men (a doctor and a vet) fighting over her! LOL. oh yeah, and she took up knitting to help her stop sleeping with men, then said she was tired of waiting (and not sleeping with them with lasted maybe 2 - 3 episodes which i'm guessing would be 2 -3 weeks in reality - not to mention that she said this the morning AFTER she had sex with one of them). i know. it's a TV show but still. i know a lot of smart, attractive women who go (and not because they want to) a lot longer than that just waiting for the right guy. (sigh). ok. enough with the merideth-bashing. i'm done. that is, until the next episode runs. ;)