happy belated bday dad

this is my belated bday posting to my dad. this picture of us is when i was about 3 years old. we don't have too many of photos of him when we were little ... which i think is a good thing because then we don't have constant reminders of how bad our lives were when he was in it (back then.) he's lucky that he has 3 (out of 4) very forgiving children who notice that at least he's trying to change now. better late then never huh? he's been more a father to me this past year than he has my entire life. it's weird how time (and the older you get) changes everything. my other sibling (who refuses to forgive him) says that he's only changing now because he's getting older and is alone but who can fault him for that? no one wants to grow old alone ... life is hard enough even when you're young! it's too bad really. if you want to heal, you have to let go ... believe me when i say it's a hard thing for me to do ... i've put it off for a really long time. i only started recently and am having a really hard time but you can't carry all that negativity with you. i want a better life and think all this baggage is hurting my chances at getting one.

i went totally off the subject again! =P anyway, i have recent pics of my dad but JUST IN CASE i ever have a really bad day and started venting about him, i wanted to protect his identity so i posted this pic instead. so here's to my dad:

dad, thanks for helping me out this past year. i had a lot of decisions to make and you did offer me a solution to one of them ... thanks for being patient with me since it took me so long to make it. although it would be an easy decision for most, it wasn't for me for various reasons. you didn't rush me and i appreciate that. you also helped me address some concerns that i had and didn't complain one bit (even though i did.) happy belated bday. love, me